Dancing Between Shadow & Light
I'm done performing, pretending to be someone I'm not
In the putting on and taking off of this mask for so long, I almost forgot
The Truth of who I am, not a sinner, not broken, not shameful
But the conditioning runs deep. Remembering is both blissful & painful
Let me tell you, personal & spiritual growth are not for the faint of heart
As with any great masterpiece, it takes time, patience on your part
With each layer, adding depth, highlighting beauty, evoking emotion as it all comes together
Only to decide to scrap it, create a new work of art; covering up your previous piece without making it lesser
Now with a blank canvas, surrendering, I give it all to Creator, ready again to feel what my soul knows
Yet beneath those first few coats of white paint, still slightly visible, the recently purified shadows
It's a shedding, peeling off old layers, revealing a new version of myself to explore
Another harrowing rebirth. I've returned to the earth many times before
Lately, the growth has increased so rapidly, I'm getting the spins
Hardly time to pick off my lingering scales before a new cycle begins
Thrown back into the belly of the beast
Each time coming out softer, more at peace
I was told by my teacher, “The darker the shadow, the brighter the light”
Ripped between force, control, & fear—despite
My heart bursting open with gratitude electrifying my soul
Feeling joy, abundance, trust, & connecting, knowing I am whole
The polarities so extreme, becoming exhausted with grief
Pulled back into the fire to make ashes of these false beliefs
Watching each illusion burn from the chamber of my heart space
Snuggled up in a blanket of love, safe & warm, cozied up by the fireplace
I just need to be here for a while, let the cycle run its’ course
I surrender my thoughts to Holy Spirit & open my heart to get charged up by Source
You are not alone.
Love Always,
Becca